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Over this past weekend, I hit a brick wall. I’m struggling in my finances, focusing on my purpose and integrity with my wife. The stilts that I attempted to hold myself up with snapped under my feet. This was a reflection of my efforts being sufficient to make things right in my life. See, God had to use this to truly get my attention regarding priorities and focus within my life. Many don’t like to be told they are wrong since the flesh thrives in the love ofย  “self”. Living in Christ, we see God’s correction for the love that it truly is and I am truly thankful because in that I see His love draws us closer to Him through never leaving us where He found us.

In being transparent I made a post on Instagram regarding what He confirmed on my heart when it came to the focus of my purpose and journey. The text within the post stated:

(๐˜“๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฃ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ต ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ) Starting this past weekend and leading to confirmation just yesterday evening, God has a perfect way of using our imperfections for His glory through confirming His will over our lives and revealing those things that we subconsciously repress. Two things that He confirmed in my heart…(CONTINUE IN THE COMMENTS)


“๐‚๐ก๐š๐ซ๐ฅ๐ž๐ฌ, ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐š๐ซ๐ž ๐š ๐‚๐“๐Ž…” // Most of us can go down an entrepreneurial list and check every box but are we viewing the entrepreneurial journey with our gifts and talents in their proper purpose? Many of us know that we are entrepreneurs but we automatically place ourselves at the “CEO” position when in reality ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ก๐ž๐ซ๐ž ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ ๐ข๐Ÿ๐ญ๐ฌ purpose correction love leader humility๐š๐ง๐ ๐ญ๐š๐ฅ๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐ฌ ๐š๐ซ๐ž ๐›๐ž๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ข๐ฅ๐ข๐ณ๐ž๐. We have a heart for change and purpose and using our gifts and talents outside of a traditional “9 to 5” environment but some of us have gifts and talents that are meant to support and not necessarily be the primary leader. In other words we can be leaders in our space but in no way must/should we be captains of the ship. God, through His loving correction, has humbled me to see that I am great at tech operations, I can integrate tons of systems together for increased automation while maintaining cost efficiency and quality of output….but I lack the structure and focus when it comes to the bigger picture of “running the ship”. I also tried to kid my myself into thinking that I could take my gifts and talents and use them to educate others; my brain is so complex that I will only confuse most and I have to acknowledge that. I can’t continue to lie to myself to pretend that I am good in a area in which I suffer. Instead of focusing on the big picture and feeling like I need my own platform (“CEO”), I am going to focus right on my gifts and talents when it comes to tech operations and just be the support role to other great platforms (“CTO”). He may change that in the future but I want to submit to His will and not my own


“๐๐ž ๐š ๐ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ญ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐ž๐ง๐ž๐ซ ๐…๐ˆ๐‘๐’๐“…” // Right in alignment with the message above, another area that I struggled in yet pridefully denied was that I was too busy trying to lead when in reality I should have been listening, following and serving others. I am a visionary in that I can see complex operations and integration….but see that was just it, ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ฒ ๐ฏ๐ข๐ฌ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐›๐ž๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ฆ๐ž๐ญ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ง๐ž๐ž๐๐ฌ ๐จ๐Ÿ ๐ฐ๐ก๐จ ๐ˆ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐ž๐ซ๐ฏ๐ข๐ง๐ . There is “๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ ๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต” and then there is “๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด”. I focused on the former and time and time again would be frustrated that the person I was assisting never truly was excited with the final work; I see that complexity and confusion was at the root of this response. The issue was that I was in my own way and never put the other person first. I felt like I had a grand idea but that was selfish since it was my idea and not their idea. ๐ˆ ๐š๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ง๐ค๐Ÿ๐ฎ๐ฅ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐†๐จ๐’๐ฌ ๐œ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ž๐œ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐š๐ฌ ๐ก๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ๐ข๐ญ๐ฒ ๐š๐ซ๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐›๐ข๐Ÿ๐จ๐œ๐š๐ฅ๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ก๐ž๐ฅ๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐ž๐ž ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐Ÿ๐š๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐ž๐ญ ๐Ÿ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ซ๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐š๐ฅ ๐‡๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž. See, this message here was not just for my entrepreneurial endeavors but also for life in general. I see this changing every fiber of my marriage to listen to my wife’s heart FIRST before already having a solution to fix things and possibly making things worse. I see this helping me become a father that avoids blind acts of discipline and missing a moment of mercy and exhibiting the love of Jesus Christ. Most importantly, I see His correction towards being a better listener to FIRST listen more to His voice so that I can, in return, listen to the hearts of His lost sheep so that when the Gospel and Good News of Jesus Christ is shared, they too can hear His voice more clearly.


My favorite quote by Sir Winston Churchill is “๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ค๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ง ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ง๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ง๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ฎ” and while that quote fully applies to all of the above, it comes second to God’s promise over our lives…


Philippians 1:6 (NLT) says “๐˜ˆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ ๐˜ข๐˜ฎ ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜Ž๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ, ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜จ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ, ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ถ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ธ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ญ ๐˜ช๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜Š๐˜ฉ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜‘๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ด ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ฏ๐˜ด.”


๐‹๐จ๐ฏ๐ž ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐œ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ž๐œ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ง๐จ ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž ๐š๐ญ ๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ. I am truly thankful that God’s love is not one that leaves me as I am and instead continuously corrects me, molds me and shapes me more and more into the image of His Son, Jesus Christ. I hope this encourages someone and to God be the glory.

As I wrote out every word of this post, I was truly thankful to God for just the testimony and opportunity to give Him the honor. As I mentioned in the post, I truly hope that it edifies and encourages you in some way.


Listen to today’s podcast episode as I go into much more detail regarding His correction regarding this matter. *Whispers – subscribe while you’re at it*


As I mentioned, I want my life to be a reflection of His goodness for His glory alone. I am no one special. I am just a sinner that was snatched from the bondage of sin (Ephesians 2:1), given a new heart (Ezekiel 36:26) and put on a path to glorify the name of Jesus Christ (John 13:34-35). As a “sheep” that sees the love and protection of the Good Shepard (John 10:11-18), I will always truly be thankful for His love through correction and will continue to pray that He breaks “me” more and more so that His spirit can truly live fully within me. God bless.